The love and interest in nature from early on led me to studying biology – molecular microbiology to be more specific. I loved it. I learned what we are made of on a molecular level, how proteins interact with each other and cells communicate over long distances in our bodies. I wanted to understand nature and found an immensely complicated interconnectedness of what life is.
For about ten years I worked in academic science helping to expand our understanding of the cellular networks and also to improve state of the art methods. It was fun, it was exhausting, it was intense and it was very brain-focused. I pipetted, walked from incubator to microscope to lab bench and used all kinds of machines, but my body was just a tool to get the experiment done and finally have the results that we could then analyze and discuss.
The feeling of reward and joy I got when looking at the results of a well-made experiment is hard to describe and very special. This moment of knowing more than you knew yesterday drove me to working hard. Until my near-burnout. There were three times in my scientific career where I was depleted to my bones and I knew that I had to change something. Did I see it coming? Yes and no. My body told me of course, but I wasn’t used to listening. And I also didn’t know how to change my situation.
Imagine: my coach at the time asked me to always have 10% of my consciousness on my body, so I would always know how my little toe feels like! My little toe?!? How could I feel it? Just like that, without stepping on it?!? WFT! Well, I wasn’t doing great in this exercise to say the least. But I was intrigued 🙂
And I looked further…
I found dearmouring and tantric sexuality that kick-started my sensual relationship with my body. And then PLEASURE came. No, pleasure reemerged, as it has just been dormant inside of me. Most importantly, my heightened body sensibility EMPOWERED me. I could finally sense a YES and a NO in my body and I started communicating my desires. This impacted various areas of my life and brought me to finally acknowledging my gentle, sensitive part – a part that was quite difficult to navigate in the highly competitive field of science (and I think I didn’t navigate it very well for lack of tools). It is this sensitivity, warmth and gentleness that is deeply valued by my clients.
And my little toe? I can feel it anytime. I learned how to tune into my body and so can you! I will show you how.
Love,
Maria
Tl;dr
- Life is non-linear
- I was all thought, no body-awareness
- Pleasure is already there, just hidden and wanting to be found
- Your “difficult” traits might be the most valuable ones
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2 thoughts on “My Path. Part 1”
Gratuliere, ich freue mich schon sehr über und auf deine neuen Nachrichten. Meine kleine Zehe führt auch ein unerfülltes, gefühlsarmes Lebens.
Herzlichst Agnes
Danke, liebe Agnes, für dein Interesse und deine Unterstützung. Wenn du heute deine Füße in den thailändischen Sand streckst, mach mal die Augen zu und spüre in deine Füße und Zehen. Nimm die Empfindungen wahr und beschreibe sie, zB warm, rieselnd, rau, für ein paar Minuten. Experimentiere! Viel Spass damit. Maria
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